Many people have the misfortune of hitting rock bottom. I learned from personal experience that rock bottom has a basement.
For a long time, I pretended I was someone that I really wasn't.
Everyone thought that I had it all.
- A high paying job
- A beautiful girlfriend
- A nice apartment
- A brand new car
- And the body of my dreams
But inside I was living a nightmare. I didn't like who I was. I was overwhelmed with insecurity and lacking confidence. After a bad breakup, all of my demons surfaced.
This is when I truly realized that I had been putting on a show...
For as long as I can remember. This was rock bottom.
After this breakup, I dove headfirst into my work...
Looking back, I think it was because I wasn't ready to face my demons yet.
Traveling up and down the east coast as a construction foreman, I spent 8 out of the next 10 months on the road.
My main focus was MONEY! I thought that it would make all of my problems go away. A different hotel every week, only sleeping in my bed 8 times a month, and really struggling to keep relationships were all just part of the job at this point.
Not only did I trade my time for money... I traded my happiness and well-being.
I made over 6 figures that year... And NOTHING changed.
I'll never forget this moment.... I was laying in my bed and I thought to myself, "No matter how much money you make, what kind of car you drive, what house you're living in and regardless of who's sleeping next to you... If you don't control the way you think... You'll never control your life.
I had already started The Hyper Conscious Podcast, but I wasn't taking it very seriously because another year was upon me and work was busier than ever.
The day after realizing I wanted to be a full-time podcaster were the best days of my life... but also the worst.
It was in a dark dingy hotel room in New Jersey that I found out rock bottom has a basement.
Shortly after my alarm went off at 5:30AM, I started having these thoughts....
It would be so much easier if I was dead.
You're going to be trapped at this job forever. There's nothing you can do about it. Maybe you should just end it all.
Luckily, I was able to turn these voices off in my head and find some silence from all of the noise and overwhelm.
Something changed in me that morning, and I knew it was time for me to change my life.
That's the morning I found my purpose: To be the person I needed when I was at my lowest point.
But in order to be that person, I had to be willing to work on myself.
Fast forward 2 years, I'm a full-time podcaster.
Co-host, Alan Lazaros, and I just crossed the 200 episode mark and have interviewed some of the most successful people in the world.
I'm now a speaker focused on using my story to empower others, and I have 1 on 1 clients that I coach on peak performance weekly.
More importantly though, I'm happy with and proud of the man I've become today.
And if I can do it, ANYONE CAN!